Sex Without Connection

SheSays muses on a new experience: just "sex".

I have been having sex without connection

This is a first for me

I feel dead inside

Not dead, exactly, just indifferent

I want to feel something

He leaves in a week

and then I will pick my feelings off the floor,

day by day, week by week

I have other plans. I don’t want to be brought to my knees

I will not.

But still, I want connection

I want to dive into the depths of our beings

His eyes are closed

He is alone in his pleasure. Tapped into my body but tuned into his

Eyes closed

Where are you?

I know the place

But I know wetter places too

Lush knolls covered in wildflowers

Dappled sunlight dripping through ancient trees

A babbling stream,

clean and cool, laughing with pleasure

My gateway to the universe

Open for us

But only if you’re able

to go

interstellar

with me

~ Connection